Kansans and Friends In Weight Loss

In addition to working through the Living Above Worry and Stress book I am tackling the Life Strategies book by Dr. Phil.

I did my first task in the workbook the other night while my son played on the library pc. I have been getting us a study room so I can read and do some self discovery work. Anyway I have worked through two tasks I realize I am frustrated that I can make more money than what I know I have been able to, that I am capable of more than I am accomplishing, that I am suffering financial burdens I can’t handle and that I live with frustration and depression most of the time.

The next task is assigning a time line to your life starting with childhood, then adolescence,young adulthood,married or adult life and later life. Then he asks you to break them up into negative and positive events on either side of the time line.

My childhood was filled with more negatives than positives.

3 yrs old- removed from home,lost my father to suicide,went to his funeral, then immediately after was sent right back to my foster home.

4-5 yrs old- still in foster homes

5-6 yrs old positive:released to grandparents,negative:grandfather started showing his abusive side

7 yrs old- positive;got a dog, negative mom ditched us to be with some guy,lost my favorite uncle,got in trouble for flipping a girl off in first grade and for showing a boy my private parts

8 yrs old- positive: made my first communion

9 yrs old- hated fourth grade

10 yrs old- tried to start a fire at school. I actually started one at home cause I wanted to kill my grandfather, my grandfather started molesting me

11 yrs old- grandma was sick a lot,started to hate family vacations

12 yrs old- positive: confirmation, negative hit in the eye with a hardball(summer sucked that year)

There is more that I remember but these are the key things that stick out in my head. My childhood wasn’t a picnic and I spent most of it waiting to be old enough so I could move out and live my own life. Many years later I look back at all those who tried to manipulate things supposedly in my best interest. I get very angry thinking of all the crap that happened that could have been avoided. However, as the serenity prayer goes “Lord grant me the courage to accept the things I cannot change, change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.” I have prayed this many many many times in my adult life. No I am not an alcoholic,drug addict, overeater, or otherwise but I do have a seriously negative relationship with food.

As I hit adolescence things got worse. More to come on that one.

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